Bla-bla-bla :)
I'm very disappointed with myself, my attitudes, my public image and everything I have done. So disappointed with the fact I was born such a sophisticated person.
I hate myself crying.
I just must reconsider everything. And again find myself an awful person and stay alone, caring not to worry anyone. That just seems my fixed idea not to worry anyone so I become madly aggressive when someone cares about me. Crazy unsocial Nataly.
I just need to sleep enough :)

Читай-город

The things go the way that soon I'll be able to count all my deep depression days by counting plastic bags from bookshop "Читай город".

Скоро по количеству пакетиков из "Читай-города" можно будет считать, сколько у меня было депрессивных дней со дня открытия этого книжного.
Даже не знаю, что лучше - "заедать" стресс или "закупать" его.

Bad habit?

I seem to have a bad habit.
During telephone chatting with my friends I smile when they tell me funny stories and they always ask "Hey, why are you silent?" - "Oh, sorry, I'm smiling :) When you'll end it up I'll burst out laughing". Though other people looking at me during my talks tell it looks quiet pleasant when person speaks on the phone and smile.
Such a dilemma.