Bla-bla-bla :)
I'm very disappointed with myself, my attitudes, my public image and everything I have done. So disappointed with the fact I was born such a sophisticated person.
I hate myself crying.
I just must reconsider everything. And again find myself an awful person and stay alone, caring not to worry anyone. That just seems my fixed idea not to worry anyone so I become madly aggressive when someone cares about me. Crazy unsocial Nataly.
I just need to sleep enough :)